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still struggling

I didn’t think it’d be easy but I certainly didn’t think it’d be this hard. I still haven’ t even sought the details surrounding Andre’s death. It’s bad enough to know he’s gone without knowing HOW it happened. I was fairly ok last night, then the reminder upon wakening just hit me down again. This [...]

what a day

I can’t breathe, it feels like there is water in my lungs, something yanking on my legs so hard that I can’t move them… all of that spanned maybe 2 seconds…. when I come out of it, coughing, sputtering … cow-bawling!

… For the day I was ok – I chatted with Lonna and tended to customers and kind of escaped it for a while … but … the reminders are everywhere… the dinner: because I was bawling over it when hubby came in this morning… that is how ridiculous this is for me.