I have a couple of observations to share with you today … I’ve been in the doldrums for a couple of days now and it’s mostly circumstances. I have moments of pure bliss thanks to my friends and family, but it’s hard to stay bright and sunshiny … though I try; hard.
- It sucks pretty bad when a work colleague says to you they like you, that they are going to miss you being around and that it’s a damn shame that you’re leaving … and then you realize that you have no choice in the matter.
- It sucks even worse to not know whether you WILL be leaving even up until almost the last minute. It especially sucks because I don’t know what to tell people (employer).
- I REALLY need to find a way to earn and be occupied using the internet as my commute – I KNOW I won’t be able to do this separation every 2 or 3 years without totally falling apart each time.
- Pain is something that has been a staple in my life for years … and I am only now (these last few weeks) noticing just how much pain I am in, have been in … more too, that pain is not only joint pain but muscular as well and it isn’t particularly predictable either. Makes me wonder just how much of this was contributory to the quality of my last days at Digicel.
- There are stupid people everywhere; picture this: thunderstorms and heavy rainfall today, sprinklers set to go ALL night and ALL day tomorrow. Yea … that happens here.
- I miss being able to blog about every aspect of my life with openness … there is so much I can’t say about my here and now that feels stifling.
- This is month 3, and still nothing … and I hope I can stave off the desperation and frustration and just keep at it. Sorry, can’t say anything more about that – see what I mean?
- There aren’t too many people who understand my life as it is now and that creates such a vacuum in my life … makes me feel isolated and alone.
- I am still addicted to WoW but I try to stay away and do other things more often than I used to – I think that’s progress.
- I have the best husband on the face of this earth … yes, I know … I am biased and expected to be that way, but I still have to say it.
- And finally, I miss being connected to the geek world and knowing about stuff. I had a good friend ask me “Where have you been?” when I didn’t know what a SSD was.
One day, I may be able to provide enlightenment for some of these observations, but until then … bear with me.
/sigh
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You can use LJ again. Or, there is another journal site that just cropped up. When I remember what it's called I'll let you know. You shouldn't keep that all stuffed away in your head.
Posted 16 Jul 2009 at 00:16:31 ¶You can use LJ again. Or, there is another journal site that just cropped up. When I remember what it's called I'll let you know. You shouldn't keep that all stuffed away in your head.
Posted 16 Jul 2009 at 05:41:47 ¶=) Some of it I just can't speak about because I don't own the info, know what I mean? The rest, well, you already know.
Posted 21 Jul 2009 at 08:24:45 ¶