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So, I took my depression on the road with me this morning. I always seem to use my despondency to motivate me into DOING things. Which is a complete turnaround from a few years ago. Back then, I’d sit and wallow and mope. These last few months, I find that it is when I am feeling my lowest that I actually get things done.

I took Mom’s car. And oh yea, was that an awkward journey … she was all apologies, but I still feel she missed the point. I have never been good at expressing what is in my headspace. Maybe that’s the reason … anyway, I took the car and headed straight to the credit union. The discharge of lien was NOT requested, so I had them do so. I should be able to collect that tomorrow and get that done. After that, it’s simply a matter of signing over the car to Dad.

Went to see my good friend over at the insurance company while I was there. She’s about to embark on much the same journey as I … tho with slight differences. She’s under a lot of stress and it is beginning to show in her health …. sounds familiar to me. I was there too – tho apparently, she managed to escape the migraines so far – lucky her. Anywho, I have a cousin there too (yea – cousins all over the place it seems) and I took the time to see her and tell her the news too. Every time I look at her, I wonder how the hell one family can have so many drastically different looks. She looks like Dad. I look more like Dad’s sister. It’s SO odd.

Then I went and got me some choklit muffins and I am back home where I think I will eat something ( including a choklit muffin ) and play a little before I start packing in earnest. Later I go to visit another good friend … the last time we’ll see each other ( maybe ) again. Lots of those these days. /sigh

The GOOD news is this: honey-sunshine arrives on the 23rd HERE IN JAMAICA! Now that his vacation has been approved and the ticket bought I can FINALLY look forward to it. WEWT!!!! We head into the country on Tuesday, but I ain’t gonna tell you where until we get back.  Back to town on Friday and we’ll be hanging with the parents until Monday and we both leave ( assuming I get my passport back in time ) on Tuesday the 1st.

Still fighting back the tears today, but it’s a little easier now. I only know I need to be good for Monday … can’t have honey-sunshine coming to me and I am down in the mouth, now can we?

There, I’ve said it. Now you ALL know.

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